" The worst thing that could happen at this point is a show of sympathy, a look, a word even. I'd turn away or hush the speaker, because what I need to feel is that the things I'm going through can be neither understood nor shared; it's the only way I can believe there's some sense and truth to the horror of it all. The moment it turns into words, I am overcome with ennui and the whole thing seems pointless again "